One month cubicle free

It’s been 1 month since I left my job.

To be honest, I’ve been too busy working to notice that I haven’t been at work. Between packing my swiss life into boxes to ship across the Atlantic and planning tickets, insurances and re-packing for a world trip, it’s been pretty hectic.  The first time it really sank in that I no longer work in the corporate world was when I boarded the plane from London to Singapore- the first official flight of my world trip. I was slightly sleep deprived from the screaming twins sitting in front of me on my overnight flight from Toronto but as I burned a few hours at heathrow, I realized that I hadn’t put an out of office message on my email nor was there a blackberry buzzing in my backpack (in fact, there wasn’t even a phone in my backpack!). An initial feeling of discomfort washed over me (could have been symptoms of electronic withdrawal) but then was quickly replaced with a lightness I’ve rarely felt before.  This wasn’t a 10 day vacation, this was my life now.

 My overflowing to-do list of powerpoint presentations, excel models and endless email replies had been replaced with this blank page that I now had total control to fill  (or not fill). The enormity of that was like a shot of red bull directly to my veins or the kind of adreline that only comes from dancing on stage to my favorite song ( those of you who know me can probably picture that).

But wait.  Did it really take a month for this to sink in? How had my to-do list changed over the past month?  In actual fact, the length of the darned list didn’t change but my choices did.  For example, if I had to choose between sitting in front of my computer to do admin work or going for dinner with a friend in Zurich- I chose the friend over the computer.  If I had to choose between an autumn walk with my family on thanksgiving Monday or doing last minute shopping & pre-packing my world trip backpack – I chose the family walk. And I noticed I started to feel less guilty about those choices ( that’s right, I’m not totally without the saboteur voices in my head). Just being there, enjoying the ‘live’ moments with my family and friends over accomplishing every single task on my to-do list in a day seems to have more breathing room in my life now. Just physically being there with the people that matter most is a pretty cool way to just BE.

  It’s a small step on the Being spectrum yet its probably an important one.

 

 

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6 Responses to “One month cubicle free”

  1. I totally recognize myself in that note! ;) And in the doing vs being part. I am also a DOER and feel bad -let’s say- if I casually sit on my sofa instead of cleaning up the place and ironing shirts. The one time I completely let it go was when I traveled 5 weeks last year.. I probably need to go again sooner than later ;) I totally envy you, and that world around trip is also on the top of my to do list for a while yet (you see here, “to do” – I can’t be cured ;) ). In the meantime, I’ll follow your trip which will surely inspire me :) ) And I’ll try to forget abt the cleaning up bit and enjoy a glass of wine instead ;)

    Take care dear friend!
    Ben

  2. Tania! I’m so happy that I got to meet up with you on your very first leg of your world tour. Starting off with a roar at the night safari with tigers & lions is exactly how i’d picture you to go. Always with a big bang. I’m going to be tuned in to this channel to find out exactly how you’re doing. Stay wacky!

  3. OH MAN, I remember when I had a shot of red bull inserted directly into my veins during a night in Chang Mai. THe court case is still pending, so I can’t talk about it. But you, oh you. You keep unfolding into your great expanse. You have a big heart girly, and your writing is very thoughtful. Bravo! xo

    • Lourdes D' Souza Says:
      October 24, 2012 at 7:16 am

      Hi Tania

      Have a great time. Will we be seeing you in Goa? Do take care and eat right.

      All the best. God bless.

      Love

      Darryl, Lourdes & Charles

  4. Loved the post and it definitely resonated with me, since I am always running around trying to tackle my endless to do list and sometimes I make the wrong choices between what I think needs to be done and spending time with my family and friends. I think it is courageous of you to be making these decisions and to be so self aware. Lovely post and looking forward to more of your insights!

  5. The Global Sponge The Global Sponge Says:
    November 13, 2012 at 4:49 pm

    Ben, Nelu, Jane- thanks for your candid comments! I hope the choices are getting easier!

    Lourdes- would have been lovely to visit Goa but so far India isn’t in the travel schedule ( I think that would have extended by trip by 6 months:)

    Marie- was great catching up with you in Singapore- like old times in China!

    Much love to you all!
    Tania

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